INSPIRATION
I was thinking about the word INSPIRATION this morning and I understood it as "in spirit". Inspiration is not just something that one finds, looks for outside; it is rather the state of being present in spirit, a state we are all in naturally every second of every day.
Spirit/soul can only be "in spirit." There is no other state to be in, for it can only be present in and as itself. So we (souls/spirits) are in-spirit always and so we are inspiration always.
Why then look for inspiration outward?
My heart gives this answer:
Looking outward allows me to marvel at the manifestation of what my in-spirit self creates. Meaning, I should not search for inspiration outward because I already have found it, I am inspiration, but I can look outward to see the glorious manifestation of what I have created. My outward journey to find inspiration has so far been the mirror reflecting that which my soul (who dwells in and is constant inspiration) is always creating. The outward journey is what I call my reality. If for some reason, the world outside seems without inspiration, I must understand that what I have manifested, created as my reality, has been corrupted somehow. It is impossible for my manifestation to be without inspiration, for I am always inspired, in-spirit. But I must find within how - through which tools - did I corrupt the manifestation of my inspired masterpiece.
I believe, the environment, a city, a field, a coffee shop is a tool. It is the white canvas, while all beings in it are the colors I (and everyone else) choose. In environment and through everything that exists in it, I manifest my creation, my reality.
We all do.
We are simultaneously painters - creating our own masterpiece - and paint - to be used by others creating theirs. Without one another, we have no paint, we have no color. Our reactions/actions/intentions/responses are the brushes we choose. They are the tools that manipulate paint. They must be chosen carefully because, together with paint (each living being) and canvas (environment, we will use them in order to manifest our inspiration. These brushes, reactions/actions/intention/responses, ultimately determine the stories shown on canvas, our masterpieces, our realities.
If reactions/actions are not coming from the heart, then they are based on copied expectations and as such they will manipulate everyone/everything around us in a corrupted (non-soul abiding) way. When we choose an inappropriate brush, the painting manifested will not resonate with what the soul wants to manifest. What the soul wants to manifest is always the pinnacle of beauty, created in-spirit, pure inspiration and by definition it is what gives us joy.
If what is manifested outside does not match that which the souls wants to manifest - there will be suffering, pain, depression. If the reality - in which I find myself - is not resonating with me anymore, then: I may need new canvas (environment) and colors (people, plants, animals - all beings) In this case I travel and find them.
or
I am not liking my own creation, which means I am seeing manifested a corrupted version of what was originally created "in spirit". It is not the creation that is corrupted but the creative process, the tools used to manifest it. I have in fact corrupted it by choosing the inappropriate, non soul abiding brush - aka reaction/action/intention/response based on expectation and not on authentic feeling. It means I am copying, I am not authentically creating anymore.
If it is true that I am choosing my reactions/actions based on expectation and not authentic feeling, then I have lost awareness of being "in spirit", I am disconnected, and now I must gain awareness again. To do this I must be quiet, still. Only by gaining awareness again, will the outside world be aligned with my inside world because I will be once more creating my own original masterpiece, in the perfect canvas (environment) with the perfect colors and having chosen the appropriate brush. Only this way I can have Peace!
I am starting to understand what painting my own reality means. Not bad for 9:30 on a Sunday morning!
Why then look for inspiration outward?
My heart gives this answer:
Looking outward allows me to marvel at the manifestation of what my in-spirit self creates. Meaning, I should not search for inspiration outward because I already have found it, I am inspiration, but I can look outward to see the glorious manifestation of what I have created. My outward journey to find inspiration has so far been the mirror reflecting that which my soul (who dwells in and is constant inspiration) is always creating. The outward journey is what I call my reality. If for some reason, the world outside seems without inspiration, I must understand that what I have manifested, created as my reality, has been corrupted somehow. It is impossible for my manifestation to be without inspiration, for I am always inspired, in-spirit. But I must find within how - through which tools - did I corrupt the manifestation of my inspired masterpiece.
I believe, the environment, a city, a field, a coffee shop is a tool. It is the white canvas, while all beings in it are the colors I (and everyone else) choose. In environment and through everything that exists in it, I manifest my creation, my reality.
We all do.
We are simultaneously painters - creating our own masterpiece - and paint - to be used by others creating theirs. Without one another, we have no paint, we have no color. Our reactions/actions/intentions/responses are the brushes we choose. They are the tools that manipulate paint. They must be chosen carefully because, together with paint (each living being) and canvas (environment, we will use them in order to manifest our inspiration. These brushes, reactions/actions/intention/responses, ultimately determine the stories shown on canvas, our masterpieces, our realities.
If reactions/actions are not coming from the heart, then they are based on copied expectations and as such they will manipulate everyone/everything around us in a corrupted (non-soul abiding) way. When we choose an inappropriate brush, the painting manifested will not resonate with what the soul wants to manifest. What the soul wants to manifest is always the pinnacle of beauty, created in-spirit, pure inspiration and by definition it is what gives us joy.
If what is manifested outside does not match that which the souls wants to manifest - there will be suffering, pain, depression. If the reality - in which I find myself - is not resonating with me anymore, then: I may need new canvas (environment) and colors (people, plants, animals - all beings) In this case I travel and find them.
or
I am not liking my own creation, which means I am seeing manifested a corrupted version of what was originally created "in spirit". It is not the creation that is corrupted but the creative process, the tools used to manifest it. I have in fact corrupted it by choosing the inappropriate, non soul abiding brush - aka reaction/action/intention/response based on expectation and not on authentic feeling. It means I am copying, I am not authentically creating anymore.
If it is true that I am choosing my reactions/actions based on expectation and not authentic feeling, then I have lost awareness of being "in spirit", I am disconnected, and now I must gain awareness again. To do this I must be quiet, still. Only by gaining awareness again, will the outside world be aligned with my inside world because I will be once more creating my own original masterpiece, in the perfect canvas (environment) with the perfect colors and having chosen the appropriate brush. Only this way I can have Peace!
I am starting to understand what painting my own reality means. Not bad for 9:30 on a Sunday morning!
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